dream boy.

sooo...
my dream boy consists of many things.
i made a list when i was 14.. on february 8, 2004.
here it is:

-hardcore Christian (he is firm in his faith)
-older than me (1 month younger than me)
-sweet (yes)
-funny (yes)
-spontaneous (sometimes)
-interesting (yes)
-smart/intelligent (yes)
-plays an instrument (vocal chords, guitar, bass, drums)
-has big dreams (wants to be a rockstar)
-does an extreme sport, preferably skateboarding (skateboards on occasion)
-doesn*t go to my church or didn*t come from my church (yes)
-trustworthy (yes)
-respectful (yes)
-honest (yes)
-has a good job (starbuck*s)
-encouraging/supportive (yess)
-fun (yess)
-sensitive (yes)
-random (yes)
-can cook (microwave haha)
-good writer/poetic to an extent (writes songs)
-far from boring (yes)
-speaks a dif. language along w/english (some german, some spanish)
-mysterious (haha)
-good-looking/handsome (yesss & cute & attractive & yes)
-dark hair (yes)
-dark eyes (yes)
-dresses to my tastes (yes)
-virgin
-trusts me & doesn*t doubt me (yes)
-understanding (yes)
-romantic (sometimes)
-good hugger (yes)
-in good shape/nice body/muscular/not gross tho (yes)
-white teeth/good smile (very cute smile)
-makes eye-contact (yes)
-independent (kinda)
-confident of himself/sure in who he is (yes)
(now i*m gonna add a few more)
-taller than me (yes)
-weird like me (yes)
-treasures/adores me (yes)
-gets along w/my family (for the most part)
-i get along w/his friends (yes)
-good listener (most of the time)
-talks to me/opens up (working on that)
-always tells me random things on his mind (yess)

=)

so pretty much that*s all i can think of for now..
i*m gonna go down the list again
& see if i*ve found my dream boy..

well, he fits most of the list.
& the most important things that are on there..

meet the boy who truly makes me happier than i*ve ever been:

yup i extremely more than like him.
don*t tell him but..
i*m in love w/him.
=X ssshhhhhH!

l o v e .

4 simple letters that make up 1 seemingly simple word.
o but how much more wrong could you get!
love is probably the biggest word everr..
like in meaning.
a whiiiiiile ago, i wrote out my definition of love.
it was on my old computer
which is now old & broken,
so i don*t have it.
i*m gonna try it again.

let me show you the webster*s dictionary definition:

1 a (1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b: an assurance of love

here*s what dictionary.com says:

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

NOW here*s what the Bible says:

1 Corinthians 13 - 1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


& to me, love is an action, along w/a feeling.
love is a choice, a decision.
it*s selflessly deciding to put some1 & their interests & well-being before yourself.
it*s making a choice to love the person no matter what.
it*s not thinking it*s always gonna be flowers & sunshine & rainbows
but knowing that it*s gonna be hard sometimes.
it*s deciding to always care about some1
& always love them regardless.
nothing can take it away,
nothing can change it.
it*s choosing 1 person to invest in,
1 person to take a risk on,
1 person.
it*s also a feeling cuz you just know.
it*s like strong feelings of affection, admiration, adoration..
you get butterflies & your heart beats faster & slower at the same time,
you feel just this amazing way about some1.
it*s indescribable.
there are no words to express the word "love."
it just makes you... happy,
but that seems like such a lame word to describe it.
love is a forever thing.
once you make that decision,
you can never take it back.
you give a piece of your heart away,
& you are trusting the person to protect it,
you are also never going to get it back,
no matter what.
love is the most incredible thing in the world.
& only God does it purely & perfectly.



.....are you my 1 true love?