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i miss it.
i*m not far from it
but still i do.

today i talked to my dad like he was an old friend,
but he*s not, he*s my daddy.
it made me miss him a loooooot
& i don*t wanna grow up,
i wanna be his little girl forever.
i wanna be his daughter that woke up early every morning
just to say bye to him before he went to work,
the daughter who would run down the street after his car,
waving & blowing kisses.
i wanna be his daughter that would draw him pictures
& hide them in his briefcase
so he*d find them randomly during his day.

i*m scared for some reason..
i love my daddy
& i never want to lose him..
i dunno exactly what i*m thinking
or why i*m thinking.
but i do know that i wanna make him proud
& i don*t wanna let him down.
i*ve done it before
& it*s the wost feeling in the world..
i don*t want that to ever happen again!
it makes me feel like a complete failure.

i*m also just realllllly overwhelmed.

here*s the deal:
i*ve been tryna make some changes
(for the better, of course)
& it*s hard, but i*m doing it.
well i*ve been doing a decent job
& all of the sudden,
all this drama happened
& things started going downhill.
i feel as if Satan is trying to break me down,
i refuse to let that happen.

Jesus, i need You.
i feel discouraged & i*m stressed.
i*m overwhelmed.
pleez be my strength,
be my "2nd wind"...
i love You
& w/Your help,
i will overcome.
AMEN.

-kimie ♥